What am i doing?!

I feel like a wreck...
I feel like shit...
I don't know what is wrong with me...

I'm on the risk of failing a module, and i totally don't like the feeling of that.
I don't understand what is wrong with me...
I'm supposed to love this module, but the more i'm into it, the more i hate it...
Listening to Avril Lavigne's When you're gone...

Very literally, its like as if the love for this course is gone...
And i'm here crying out to it, to come back.
I need it back, that love of the module.
But nothing seems to be working...

I told myself before, that i have backup plans... Many of them...
But at this point of time...
None of them are more important than that single module...
Its really been some time since i felt like a wreck like this.
And i'm really lost as to what to do.

Thankfully though, I know that i have my Friends and Juniors there to listen to me...
To be my listening ear...
I have to thank them for that...
Because if not, I think i'll be in a much worst state then i would be...

And as i'm typing this, i realise how strange it is that i mostly feel more at home, when i'm with Swiss Winds, compared to being at home...
I don't even know why i'm like that...
Really blur to what is going on with me...
Cos i'm really lost at this point...

But i guess i'm just being too negative...
Failure is never the end of the road, for anyone...
I must stand up on my feet again, and fight back...
And as Mrs V has just said, "However hard something seems to get through, no tunnels last forever..."
Its something that i definitely have to learn...
Failing at something only means that i have to try harder.
Yea, that is how i have to look at it...
Its the only way i'll get through this storm.

The one, and only way.
Look at that light at the end of that tunnel, and run towards it.
There may be a storm brewing in the tunnel, but the only way out is forward, no to go back in time and find some way out from the back.
Its a sprint that will never be easy, and i may have a few more falls before i get out of the tunnel, but i need to believe that i can do it. And i know that i will.

For sure...