giving up?

Haven cried so hard in so long...
I ask myself so many times, what is the whole point of giving everyone so much when u are in a corner suffering on ur own...
All that i've been through for the past few years...
How much i have bottled up...

Just when i'm gonna try and finally settle down, you go and tear everything apart...

I hate being the only child... I have no one to look up to, and no one to go to for help or whatever...
When everything fails, i don't have any siblings to fall back on...

To all my close friends out there, I thank you all for standing beside me and walking through my dark path with me.
I know you all can't be around for me all the time, but at the least u all were with me when i most needed you.
I thank you all...

I just hope i can pull through another year like this...
I really don't know how much more of this i can take...